This sem has been the weirdest one by far in terms of workload. I had to hit the ground flying when the semester started with my design project. Up to 12 hours a day of hardcore work. Non stop for four weeks. As the weeks drew on, its difficult for me to even put together 12 hours of work in what.. 4 days, not counting classes that I have to attend.

There seems to be a lack or urgency due to the slacker modules. Geotechincal engineering and foundation engineering is by far the two slackiest modules in terms of content and workload in the entire civil engineering programme. Graduate modules are not very far behind...

The modules that I've taken this sem seems to be more quiz based than group projects. Not counting the design project.. Could this be the reason I feel more free? And In a way, I miss group projects. *fends off all the curses thrown at me as ppl, or anyone, read this* I find it fun to interact with people. Of course this assumes that you've got excellent group mates. Or even as least one other capable member.

Studying for quizzes is no fun. You hide out in your own respective bunkers studying to beat the other 99.99% in the bell curve. And when you fail in a quiz, you only have you to blame..

Or am I just shifting blame?

Today seems to have been a really pointless day. I spent probably 3 hours on work and like the other 12 hours slacking? I have come to totally dislike public holidays that are close to exams.. For one, its so blardy mafan to find food, and even if I were to go out, it'll just make me guilty for not studying. Not to mention, going out kinda seems like me just wandering around aimlessly these days :S

But then again, I somehow don't have that much to study which was the reason why I slacked so much. More on my workload this sem when I actually get to it.

If today were to just disappear, it wouldn't have mattered to me cause I did absolutely nothing productive. Oh, but Greys Anatomy is awesome by the way.

Chris chris, complained that you didn't get to live the same hour twice.. But give you one whole day also never make use of it.. What's one hour compared to one day? sigh

Goodnight world!

Nature has a way of making sure that things comes in sets of twos.

It takes two to tango.

There are two things that make a pair.

It takes two hands to clap.

Two people is what makes a couple.

And two commited people to make a marriage.

It takes two to be best friends, to start a dialogue, to double the fun and square the craziness.

And for all the lonely people out there, there's always you... and God.

Silence is golden..

Word of the week: Scheming

I almost thought I could trust you. Almost.

Till I realised, or rather, recalled how you treat your 'friends'.

I made the right choice! Yeah!

The dice has been thrown.

The number: 50

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I'm still confused...

and whats the point in being....

Losing track of things...

silence is difficult to handle...

six...

and about to break...

three different groups of ppl ><3.....

no wait... 4!

yesterday was different. definitely different.

but I guess that should actually be normal.

the previous years have just been special.

and I guess I have been blessed to get a few special ones in a row.

I kinda mixed up the special as the norm.

theres no need for sorry, only thanks.

=)

what drives me make these decisions?

In a game of snakes and ladders, I would be in square one, not having been bitten by a snake, but by not having taken a step...

Some friends say the things you don't want to hear, but its actually the truth you just didn't want to hear all along...

speak no evil, speak no evil, speak no evil

this is something i'm obviously not used to, but i guess i better start getting used to it....

and so my design project has come to an end. 25 days spending probably an average of 6 hours or more on the project and now its all over. i should be glad its over, people are teling me to be glad its over. if only i could control our emotions and tell myself to be glad...

how i ended up in a totally random group is still a wonder to me. how i idiotically assumed and didnt fight for what i want. initially, i naively believed that i could do it all. we know and were told that design project takes up alot of time, but hey, i'm me and i still believed i could handle it all. what a joke eh? dont get me wrong tho, there were people in my group that i could actually count on and that kept me going. i guess there are people outside your usual group of friends that you can count on. there may be few, but they are out there.

presentation was today, or rather yesterday. worked my ass off on the presentation slides the day before, and i must say i'm dammed proud of it. it kinda feels like i'm taking powerpoint slides to a different dimension. but after watching the first group present, i realised how naive my slides are. totally misjudged the point of the presentation. theres was totally a lack of constructive criticism within my group. i guess this points to lack of preparation. imagine that our ppt slides were only compiled half an hour before the presentations began. as much as i would like to believe i am, it appears i'm not invincible after all..

eventually there were frustrating moments, which started happening more frequently. there were times when i worked on this project that i felt like giving up. multiple times. but i managed to tell myself its not about the grades but what i learn and take away from it. this should be a step in the right direction. that education is more than just the grades i end up getting. in truth, reflecting on the last month, it seems that i have walked away with more than just engineering knowledge. i had fun interacting with the external consultant. i grew closer to friends in times of such adversity, yes, the adversity of design project. the countless problems thrown at us and the solutions which may seem to make little sense at all. hopefully friendships lasts and its not just me sticking out a solo hi-five.

but i guess in the past 3years of uni, i have been working towards getting a better cap. i was motivated. i drew my inspiration from those around me. its just not so easy to give up something you have been working for, especially after such a long time. at the end of the day, the grade still matters, dont they?

chris feels lost at sea without an anchor... floating aimlessly...

Weather Forecast: Gloomy for the upcoming weeks

When you ask others for advice, follow them, and things go wrong, you have the advice to blame.

But when you follow your own advice, you only have yourself to blame.

Are you strong enough to make your own decisions?

a quiet day... do you celebrate your chinese birthday?

TheQuoteWhore

Love is like a rubber band. We keep pulling until someone lets go, and the one that held on longer is the one that gets hurt.

A partition of unity is locally finite if each x in X is contained in an open set on which only a finite number of strain are non-zero...

pening...

how much more?

making an ass out of you and me

because you are stronger than this..

At the end of the day, I miss the silent voice telling me everything is gonna be alright...

I miss the comforts that comes with familiarity.

Too much difference is simply unsettling. A little difference is good. But too much is just too much...

People do not make stupid decisions.

There are many occasions where we look back upon the multitude of decisions we make, and wondered why and what on earth could have motivated us to take such seemingly stupid actions.

The truth is that, we only live in the moment.

A moment once lived, shall never return again.

And that's why we will probably never be able to understand why we make such 'stupid' decisions in the past.

Trust ourselves not to make stupid decisions, for if we do not even trust ourselves, how can we expect others to trust us?


I don't think I have been myself recently. I just wish I could make this feeling go away. The feeling of wanting to puke from having too much to do.

I have a problem.

And I don't think I can fix it on my own...

=(

Dug my own grave.

Refused to lay in it.

Its really not that I have been so busy.

Its just that things are different.

Its weird to even walk by.

Its weird to even think....

Goodbye to you my trusted friend

Surprise!!

From IVLE

By the time the sun came out, I would have considered today a damn miserable day.

Who knew by the end of it, I had 5 reasons to be happy for.

=)

its like the first few weeks all over again..

Only when the hustle and bustle of things start to settle, do I know how I feel inside.

This doesn't get any easier... Leaving..

Some are just harder than most..

Slater makes me feel like I do when I write my New Years Resolution. She makes me feel like the guy I want to be.

And Britta makes me feel like the guy I am three weeks after New Years, when I'm hitting the snooze button and screening my mom's phone calls. Back to who I really am.

So, do you try to evolve? or do you try to know what you are?

Cause the sun will rise again and again and again...

And I/YOU/HE/SHE/THEM will be alright.

If not today,then tomorrow, or the day after..

Have you ever been so sure of something that you are actually afraid to find out whether you really are right or wrong?

If there's anything I need to learn, its to take failure more gracefully..

Somebody poke me off a cliff... Ahhhhhh!!!

We sometimes find strength from the people we least expect...

The future is not for one to give to another,

but for two to build together.

It actually quite surprising how I think Moral Education is a complete joke, the Sejarah we study is so twisted, yet there are elements in the Malaysian Education System that actually has played an impact in my life - and a quite significant one in fact.

This poem by Rudyard Kipling particularly hits the right chord..

If..

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;

If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same...

So what impact does secondary school have on your life?

Theme Song from F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

So no one told you life was going to be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, you're love life's DOA.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
Well, it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.

But, I'll be there for you, when the rain starts to pour.
I'll be there for you, like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you,
"when your world seems to shatter to bits."

Journey began : January 11, 2011
Journey ended: July 4, 2011

Denmark : Copenhagen
Sweden: Malmo, Lund, Kiruna, Stockholm
France: Paris, Nice, Cannes
England: Manchester, York, London, Bath & Stonehenge, Liverpool, Buxton
Scotland: Edinburgh
Ireland: Dublin
Monaco
Spain: Barcelona, Madrid, Granada
Italy: Rome, Florence, Venice, Milan
Vatican City
Switzerland: Zermatt, Luzern, Zurich
Germany: Munich, Berlin
Czech Republic: Prague, Kutna Hora
Holland: Amsterdam

I never really worried about the future...

So with all the graduation photos appearing on FB, I can't help but feel that the end is near. In one year's time, I will be leaving the comforts of school. In one year's time will another chapter of my life come to an end. In one years time, will my working life begin, and so does all the debt that comes with adult life.

I think the new movie poster for Harry Potter has a very apt tagline for my seniors.. "It All Ends" =P How very depressing. But then again, the next chapter could be even more fulfilling as with great risks comes even greater rewards. Who knows what the future holds?
Que sera sera, whatever will be will be.

I never really worried about my final year and after. I had this little plan all mapped out in my head. But with only half a plan left, its as good as no plan at all.

I never really worried about the future... until now..

What I have learnt recently?

There is more to life in Singapore then just Kent Ridge Campus. Despite being in Singapore for the past five years or so, its sad to say that I have not explored Singapore as much as I would have liked. There is still so much to eat, so many places to go and so many things to explore. When people ask how much students have to study in university, I keep telling them that it really boils down to how well you want to do in school. In a way, how much you go out to see Singapore also depends on the people you hang out with. Don't get me wrong though, I love the people I hang out with!

Construction is a rough and tough sector. I better get ready for it. Time on the clock, one year.

At times, I think back and am grateful for all the people who has helped me and been there for me. I wish there were a way for me to thank them all, personally. Whether a handshake, a hug, or a little trinket from my travels. Unfortunately, there aren't enough presents to go around from my travels. I apologize for it and hope that you know that you have been remembered and appreciated.

Jetlag is no joke. Which explains the time that I'm posting this. Either that, or something else is keeping me up...

You really learn alot by talking to different people. In a way, people talk about their interests. And as different people have different interests, talking to different people will expose you to different interesting interests!

Truth be told, I may have gotten my priorities wrong for a while now. It may sound exaggerated, but there was only one thing that I gave in my all. In poker, its call "All in". This time, I may have lost the bet. But I will not regard it as a bad call.

Realising this, it would take a fool to not change a thing. Then again, it would also take a fool to change totally. The trick is to brew up a concoction with the right dosage of change.

Then again, how do you know what the right amount is?

Remember VIP? I had always thought that it was a glimpse of the future..

So many dreams, dashed and have to be rewritten.

I guess in a way I should be excited, considering the many different roads to take and how much things would change in the near future.

Okay, so maybe excited is the wrong word to use..

Was I too comfortable with the feeling of security it brought?

Sure bo? Why so high one?

Singapore Employment Pass Eligibility Requirements

The key facts and requirements for an Employment Pass type of work visa consist of the following:

• With effect of 1 July 2011, a fixed salary of more than S$2,800 a month.

There's a saying that goes...

Its better to lose your ego because of the person you love, rather than to lose the person you love because of your ego..

How do you know if you are taking things for granted?

How do you know if you are being taken granted for?

Two sides of the same coin?

Two questions came to mind while watching Adjustment Bureau yesterday.

1) Are you willing to give up your dreams to be with the girl who you know is the one?

2) And are you willing to let her give up her dreams to be with you?

Let the tears flow freely~~~

There's actually so much that I wanna say..

I don't know.. I honestly don't know what that is supposed to mean..

Stubbornness also translates as being fiercely independent.

The many things we learn from SEP..

Nan ren bu huai, ni ren bu ai...

No matter what, life goes on.. :)

cue music to 'until the day i diee'

You just focus on doing what you can, then leave the rest up to God :)

Nobody said this was gonna be easy.

But I'll live :)

I still feel the hurt at times.. I wonder if you know, heck.. I wonder
if you care..

But I guess if you still did, things wouldn't be this way..

It may not have been that good, but I'm sure it wasn't that bad at all..

Nothing is supposed to happen,

Cause if there were, I'll be the person that I don't wanna be..

Venice winding streets definitely has a romantic charm about it.

I realise that weird feeling works both ways...

Ever heard the lyrics for Mungkin Nanti?

Listen to it again. More carefully this time.

Trust, once broken, will take a while to be restored.

Betrayal, once experienced, will take a lifetime to forget.

To forgive and forget, is a little like not learning from your past mistakes.

Sometimes we really gotta take a step back to look at things before
moving forward again..

Loving rome atm! Colosseum is simply collosal!

Summer will be awesome, despite everything...

I guess relationships isn't only about going the distance. It is also about encouraging each other to aim higher, and supporting one another to achieve their dreams. In good times and bad, sharing doubles the joys and halves the sorrows. It is many things that takes time to be discovered.

Many months ago, we started dreaming of going to europe, and plans were set in motion for summer.

Here we now stand, at the start of summer vacation.. Despite fleeting thoughts of bailing out, it would be an absolute betrayal to who we are not to enjoy this trip as friends. Any awkwardness shall pass.

Yes, all this, despite all that... =)

There is a saying that goes, "All good things must come to an end."

However, against all odds, there are situations where you get to decide when or how these good things end.

If such rare opportunities present themselves, you hope to make the right choice.

A wise friend questioned, "And how do you know what the right choice is?"

"That's a judgement call."

Sometimes you fight for it, and other times, you just know that it's time has come....

Things have to fall apart to make way for better things. ~131207160511~

On my first night in Lund, I walked to town, in the rain...

On my last night in Lund, I walked from town, in the rain..

It all comes full circle...

i sent my first ever postcard home today.. :)

time to straighten things out..

random acts of kindness that brings a smile to a strangers face..

did it make you happy too?

happy bak chang festival to ya! :)

my sister, my friend

my friend, my sister :)

hope neglecting my fyp now wont one day come back to haunt me...

six time zone difference but no bed time difference? amazingness.. lol

enjoying the capital of scandinavia! cruise to the archipalegos tomorrow! :)

but if there were ever a time that i really missed home, this would be it.

decisions decisions...

decisions that could change your life... or friendship.

that was loud...

amazing what i almost so naturally said. luckily the brain works faster than fingers..

summer has begun!

sometimes the horrible task of being a friend is not to support your decisions, but to slap you in the face again and again until you remember who you are and what you've always stood for.

think about it...

the people who have been there for you... and the people you have been there for..

As I took down the last shirt hanging in my cupboard, I realise that this SEP experience may not have contained my happiest moments, nor has it contained my worst moments.

But either way, it damn sure has been a magical few months in Lund.

the problem of leaving things to the last minute is that when last minute plans pop out, the last minute things to do are delayed yet again!

oh my, lotsa things to do when i go back... but i dont really wanna go back..

=)

sponatneous plans... awesome..

we say things we do not mean, and we mean things but we do not say them...

this is gonna be difficult :(

in my head.... in my head... zombieeee

at least this time its just in my head.

Curiousity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back.

Great minds think alike, but fools seldom differ.

If you love something, let it go. If its meant to be, it'll come back to you. But what if two people were to let go, both waiting for each other to come back?

No person is worth your tears, and the one who is wont make you cry. How about tears of joy?

Practice makes perfect, but nobody's perfect. So why practice?

Life is a bed of roses, but attached to each rose comes a stalk full of thorns.

If its not okay, its not the end. Just that the end could be very far away.

and the one that stumps me is..

The heart wants what the heart wants.... Heart 1 - 0 Chris

its amazing how two very different people can actually have the same mindset...

taking a step back, there's only me to blame..

13 hours of scheduled exam time.. 9 hours of what I sat thru...

Stories from this beautiful world... kidsgivemehope.blogher.com

=)

okay, for june to be beautiful might be asking for too much.

june, please be an enjoyable experience..

june, please be a beautiful month to make up for may..

returned to the scene of the crime where i puked, and was refused entrance on the last bus back home for being too drunk.

embarassing much? what was i thinking?