Results originally never really mattered much to me. First class honors was never exactly the goal as it still is today.

In semester 1, it was the first test into uni. I didn't expect to hit first class or anything. Just to do my best and see where it gets me. From there, I'll have a gauge of my performance, and just work towards sth better. My grades that semester were very mediocre. I wasn't very unhappy, I was satisfied with my grades considering the other coursemates I knew.
Actual results: Second class lower
NEW aim: Second class upper

By sem 2, there was an aim. However, I was still pretty jaded with the modules I was taking. Most of the modules have nothing to do with civil engineering. Only statics which is the bread and butter of civil enginneering. Did well for that, but low and behold, I got trumped in maths by the chem engins and in physics by the mech engineers. Wait a minute, I think I actually got an A or A- for maths. Haha. Can't check atm cause I'm on the plane. Oh yes, I was pulled down by a lousy econs module. But in the end, my results surprised me and I was really much closer to my aim.
Actual results: Second class lower
Aim: Second class upper

Semester 3. Hrmm.. not too impressive semester at all. Can hardly recall what this sem was about. All I know is that I finally hit my aim of second class honors! Yay for me =)
Actual results: Second class upper
NEW Aim: Maintain Second class upper

Semester 4 is no doubt the toughest semester ever by workload. I was pretty actively involved in two CCAs, taking six modules and two of which were year 3 modules, not to mention also taking one even though I skipped a prerequisite module. What on earth am I thinking? It seems that I just wanted to maintain my second upper. The bell curve god wasn't satisfied though. He wanted to give me more. Somehow with all that to do, I came with an awesome deans list catapulting my cap into the possible to hit first class range! Suddenly, perspectives changes, and so do goals.
Actual results: Second class upper
NEW aim: First class honors

Semester 5 is yet another, but last semester that I'll ever need to take six modules. The sem probably contained the most amount of project work, most notably our campus design. All in all, I did well, but not as good as the last. Got screwed upside down by the easy foundation module, okay, a tinge of over-exaggeration here.. I do not do well for easy papers. I pride my work in knowing and being very familiar with concepts. I can do tests pretty quickly, but with allowance for careless mistakes. And that's where I didn't fare too well, being careless. Nevertheless, my cap moved ever so slightly towards my first class goal!
Actual results: Second class upper
Aim: Continue aiming for first class honors

So what does tomorrow hold? Its probably the make or break, whether it remains theoretically possible or impossible to reach my goal of first class honors. I told myself early in the semester that I would work towards it. Two deans list is all I need. Possible? Yes. In truth, I did work for it. But the hard truth remains that I could have done more. So many times during the semester I lost my motivation. Lost my drive to do well. Lost myself. I could study in school, study in the day, but it when I return to my room that all falls apart. Thats when all the hard work on the day time becomes average work done due to the night. My mind would wander, and it seems that I've developed a kind of allergic reaction towards studying in my room. Doesn't help the fact that I began playing games. Post-SEP syndrome? Maybe..

I guess if tomorrow when I'm no longer on track, there will be no pats on the back. Just a "Chris, you let yourself down". But if somehow I am, I will be thanking my lucky stars...

doomsday beckons.